Thursday, 11 February 2016

BACK WITH A VENGEANCE.

Hi.. You might remember me I used to go here?? It's been a while, a very long while I know. I've been umming and ahhing over whether to write about my break away and for ages I didn't really want to. However now I want to, I miss you all and I miss this and I feel I can't just pick back up where I left off. I want to share aspects of my life with you and include that on my blog. I don't want people to think I'm after a pity party because trust me that is the last thing I am after.

On the eve of the 5th of December I had an incident with a male customer at work. He said some things to me in an incredibly rude, threatening, intimidating manner and I felt scared. As a shop worker things I deem unacceptable and as a human something I also deem highly unacceptable. I wouldn't wish that on anybody.  I was working on my own and I wasn't sure what was going to happen. Luckily for me a nice young man came to my aid as he heard what had just happened and he stayed with me until I felt a bit better and less shaky. About ten minutes later, after he left, the same horrible man tried to come back in as we were closing the door and closing up. Ever since then my anxiety has plummeted. I don't like big crowds, busy places or being left on my own.

I feel a lot stronger now compared to December. I went to London for a few days to celebrate my birthday at the end of last month with all my close friends and luckily my best friend Sam knew I was feeling super anxious so met me at Waterloo and stuck to me like superglue the whole time (<3). I feel bad I have neglected my little blog for so long, I missed it but I wasn't in the right headspace to write something happy and upbeat. I feel a lot happier now, I want to do things that make me happy and put a big old smile on my face. It made me put things in perspective about life, family and my career. I've decided I'm going to throw myself back into blogging, I want to learn how to cook or bake a few decent dishes seeing as all I can do at the moment is ready meals, burnt toast, a smoothie bowl and a sponge cake. Not quite a balanced diet! I'm also doing an online beauty course so I'll keep you updated on how that goes. I want to diet and shape up and have a face and body i'm happy and proud of.


I promise I won't leave it as long this time. Speak soon my loves. A. x